Billy’s Thoughts

Billy lay in bed, thinking of the events of the past few weeks. It had been quite a roller coaster. Making new friends, Finding a new family, discovering more about himself. It was a lot.  Sure there was other stuff, the danger, the new jobs but that wasn’t the important stuff. Danger happened, jobs came and went, but family? That was real. Moreover, this family REALLY cared about him, not to say that his own mom & dad didn’t but it had been while since he felt this kind of love and support. He supposed he had kind of gotten used to being on his own. Love, that conjured up a few images in his head, I mean he loved his new family, and they loved him back. Some more than others. That was pretty new too. Asami & Sayuri both had made their feelings known, to him, to each other. It was complicated, but in a way really simple, it was love, and in a pure form, He wished the others would strop trying to label it, it seemed to make things more complex

His mind drifted then, Asami and Sayuri and the things they had done. Some of it was new to him, He’d been with girls before, not much, but a few, and he’d done some things, even group things, but they were just for fun, they were…. Intimate like this was, which made it different. This was emotional not physical, and that made it feel different. A good sort of different. He liked it, and enjoyed the time he spent with both of them. Not just physically, but emotionally, that closeness was something he felt he needed, and didn’t even realize it.

Then there was Tony & Dave. Dave was cool, fun, down to earth, but Billy did sometimes worry, though He thought Asami worried a little too much. Sure Dave fucked up, more than once, but he seemed to learn from it each time, and while everyone was so busy worrying, they were failing to notice his growth, how much he WAS dealing with. Everything that everyone else flipped out about, he took in stride. He was calm, cool, and collected when everyone else was freaking.  Tony was ever the supporter, to a lot of people he seemed like he was just along for the ride, but Billy didn’t think that was the case. Tony was silent & strong when he needed to be, but he was always there when you needed him, and not just for Sayuri. He was coming into his own too, exploring himself not just sexually, but stepping away from his parents, learning more at the company, Billy thought about asking where he learned to shoot so well, but had decided to leave it alone.

Jasper, that was a whole other ball of wax, Billy was still a little weary of him originally, but now that he was back Billy had one big question. Back from where? And why did he seem…. Darker than before.

See now he was getting down, he was in a good mood, and didn’t want to get down, he turned his thought back to Sayuri & Asami. He laid back and imagined the two of them at the foot of his bed, Himself laying like he was now, slightly propped up hands folded behind his head, only with less clothing. The two of them sliding up on him, with those eyes, Oh how he loved those eyes. staring directly into his, hungry like some sort of jungle cat. The two of them doing their best to please him.

These thoughts kept him entertained for a while, and provided a much needed release.
He felt better now. Sometimes that’s just what he needed. His sex drive was abnormally high, even for a teenager. It was incontinent in the best of times, but downright painful in the worst of times. Another reason he was glad to have a more frequent outlet. He knew why he was like this too. It was the dino inside him, that’s what he liked to call it anyway. That base part of the human brain, the lizard brain some called it. Well he was very in touch with that. He figured it had to do with what he was, and the racial memory. The urge to breed was strong, very very strong. Not just sex, sex was great, but there was a part of his brain that was demanding he propagate the species, something that in a modern civilized society he just wasn’t ready for. Still, the urge was there, and Sex was a great way to at least partially satiate it.

Having relaxed a bit more his mind returned to less immediate thoughts. Like this whole Emancipation thing. That was like, becoming an Adult. Was he ready for it? Sure he learned to cook some, and even enjoyed it. He could mostly do laundry, sort of. And he had the bill paying thing down, that was easy. But still, Being “adult” sounded like so much more. Like being responsible, and acting mature and….ewww. In some ways he’d much rather stay a kid. Being an adult was no fun. He’d have to start behaving different, acting different, talking different, maybe even give up dealing & pot. Yuck. He had so much he wanted to do before all that stuff happened to him, and this seemed like maybe it was going to speed it along. He already had a job, and stuff and it was all happening a bit fast for him. What about his skating? He hadn’t practiced in months. Video games? He’d hardly had a chance to play, and people were starting to creep up on his high scores. Then there was incognito, His contact with them had been minimal, He wasn’t a Key member or anything, but he was Elite, and a few people were starting to wonder where he was, what happened to him, why he hadn’t been as active. What could he tell them?

It was all a lot to think about, Enough to make a guy stressed, and that was the last thing he needed. Stress was a killer. He decided he needed to unwind, so he stretched, got dressed, and went down to the Hot tub to try to relax.

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